"This is not my favourite part of the process", Dafoe quietly remarks, referring to the publicity he is engaging in. But at least he is able to talk about a film about which he is justifiably proud.In Shadow of the Vampire, Dafoe is overpowering and unrecognisable. His Max Schreck represents a desire on Dafoe's part to shun the world of mainstream Hollywood, to a point, he insists. "Any actor who tells you that he makes choices, absolutely, is wrong. You find work and work finds you." Hollywood vs Independent The kind of work that has found Dafoe, he muses, has often been indie fare. "That world, broadly speaking, sees me in a broader way," while he remains ambivalent yet philosophical about buying in to Hollywood. "Sometimes I envy their power and money, but they have so much to protect that they have to be very careful, thus very certain every step of the way, and that leaves out a lot of work of any freshness. I don't want to do that - I'm not that kind of actor." Instead Dafoe aims to be the kind of actor who "can only work from instinct, curiosity and adventure." And, surprisingly Dafoe admits, that sense of adventure is an easier road to follow the older he becomes. "You see the patterns and you get less flappable, becomes you see things come and go and see them come around again. So in terms of career stuff I feel more patient and a little easier, because the movie business is filled with hysterics and I don't think I'm particularly hysterical." However put Dafoe in a room with hysterics "and eventually I'll lose my cool." Which is why, the actor adds, he takes it all..